There are things
I need to tell you
before the world
teaches them with its teeth.
You are younger now—
still soft
where life has not yet reached,
still standing
at the edge of becoming,
believing survival
and living
are the same thing.
They are not.
I write to you
from years ahead,
from a body stitched together
with grief,
with rage,
with love,
with endurance.
I write from the branch
of an old dead tree,
where crows gather at dusk,
with smoke in my lungs,
winter in my bones,
and enough distance
to finally understand
the girl we used to be.
You believed
you were difficult to love,
because love always arrived
carrying conditions.
You believed
silence was safety.
That shrinking
was kindness.
That surviving quietly
deserved a medal.
Little crow,
hear me now—
some cages
are built
by other people’s hands.
Some
are forged
from your own fear.
Both
must be escaped.
Listen carefully.
I am going to tell you
the truth
about fire.
One day
your ribs
will become a birdcage
for every grief
you never buried.
One day
you will mistake exhaustion
for peace,
because chaos
will feel more familiar
than quiet.
One day
you will stand
before a pile of peaches,
and every forgotten version
of yourself
will return,
asking to be remembered.
I wish
I could tell you
survival
makes people holy.
It does not.
It only teaches
how heavy
a soul can become.
But even tired things
still sing.
Even broken wings
lift toward morning.
Even crows
must lose their feathers
before they learn
how to fly again.
So remember this—
Do not mistake hunger
for love.
Some people
only recognize light
after they have tried
to extinguish it.
You were never
too difficult to love.
Only
too easy
to wound.
And you,
little crow—
you were always
meant
to survive
the winter.